Insomnia Cbt

Every night I feel like I want to kill myself, what would the NHS Direct to do if I told them?

Every night it's like something comes over me and I want to kill myself. I have had counseling, CBT, psychotherapy, Conflict Council, art therapy and drama therapy, and I'm also on Fluoxetine 40 mg a day. I do not know what else I can do. I have spoken with Child Line, Connexions, Papyrus, and this Amercian called New Hope. None of them helped and the feeling is becoming more and more of a reality for me. I also have insomnia and feeling usually hits me when all others are in bed. Please help, what should I do? I wish not to go into hospital yet though as I have a holiday booked for the 16 and I REALLY do not want to miss it because it means I get to see my family. Thanks in advance:) Thanks:) it's nice to know that others are in the same position. Email me and we can chat, we can be a support for each other:) xx

NHS Direct will send police to your house. I can tell you this because I was very much in the same boat as you. I felt suicidal, and feeling even if temporary, was deeper and more crystallized over time. One day I decided to ask NHS Direct for help, believeing they would be confidential. And they took me very seriously and sent the police to my house. When I replied no, the police decided to kick the door down. They came into my apartment and found me unconscious and just about falls into a coma. NHS Direct has a special responsibility to ensure you're safe, and simply because there are cases where people do harm thelmselves, if you make them, "I feel suicidal 'or more specifically "I have done something for myself in an attempt to commit suicide, they will send an ambulance, police or both. It's not a bad thing if you really need help. Sometimes it is very difficult to ask for it myself, and NHS Direct is a way easier because you do not see the person on the other end of the line. I was shocked, angry, upset, all these things, when my suicide attempt failed. I felt that NHS Direct had breached my confidentiality, and I was angry at all. But I was very bad and just did not realize it. After treatment for my bipolar, stabilized and then I got some perspective. I began to realize that they had acted out of concern for the safety of another man, so they were actually the right people to talk to that day. Do not let any of this put you to call them if you ask for help, it will come. I can guarantee that, lol. You do not sound like you want to kill yourself, you have plans for the future, and you mention also goes into the hospital. To commit themselves to have a normal happier future, you must commit suicide out of pocket as a solution. Choose life, and decides to work through it. If you remove the possibility of suicide, you give yourself no choice but to work through problems you encounter. As time passes, you will be happier in the long run, and suicidal ideas stop bother you. The thing is, just because you have thoughts of suicide, does not mean you have to do it. You can choose to not, please choose life! You are worth a little time and effort, and if you ask the right people they will help you. Take care,